Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

4 Months






4 Months old and our little squish is such a mover. She wants to crawl so badly, she can occasionally get her knees under her but can't actually coordinate them to move. She can really go on her belly though, it's not unusual for us to put her down at one end of her play space and find her on the other a minute later. While we don't see any teeth popping out yet, she's chewing on anything and everything that she can get in her mouth. Her hands, our hands, her toys, her clothes, my boob, my braided pigtails, anything she can gnaw on with those super strong gums. She can allllmost sit up on her own, you can watch her mind trying to work out gravity and the act of balance.

She really found her feet at 15 weeks and since then she hasn't wanted to let them go. She's been trying to get them for awhile but I think she had to wait for her legs to get long enough to reach around her fluffy cloth butt. She has such long legs for a little one, while she can wear a 3-6 month in pants and shirts, we've had to switch out all her jammies with feet for 6-9 months. To our absolute delight, she's started to laugh over the past month, this deep, belly giggle that just melts my heart right into a puddle.

She loves kisses from her mama, watching her kitties, grabbing her daddy's nose.

She raises her eyebrow and smiles with her mouth wide open when she roots in her sleep.

She's curious, tenacious, stubborn, full of joy and wonder.

Towards the end of three months, she started to hit the 4 month sleep regression, which seems improperly named to me since it's a permanent change in how her brain processes sleep. Prior to this, most babies experience only deep sleep, which is one of the reasons they can sleep anywhere. Around 4 months their brains begin to change and they start to experience a more adult sleep pattern - light sleep, deep sleep, light sleep - the natural sleep cycle. This leads to a whole lot of wake ups and some serious cranky babies and parents, but she doesn't seem to be too bad. There were maybe three days where she was waking up at night crying, she really values her sleep and has no more desire to be awake at 3am than we do, but she's been doing fairly well since. We really love co-sleeping with her, it's a true sanity saver for our family and I don't know how we'd get such good sleep without it. Feeling her breathe is the only way I know how to sleep now.

Friday, April 22, 2016

3 Months!



My sweet girl is 3 months old! She's officially out of her newborn diapers *sniff* and is getting so big. She mastered, as in not just a one off, rolling front to back at 9 weeks and rolling back to front at 12 weeks. She can scoot all over her playmat on her tummy and loves the new jumperoo we just bought her. She instinctively knew how to spin the toys and she talks to herself while she plays with them, processing her world. She's such a happy baby. 

As of right now, her likes include being outside, bath time, her fingers, books, boobie, and melting her parent's hearts. Her dislikes include naps, being put down, having to wear clothes and artificial boobies. She looks at me like I'm absolutely crazy when we offer her a bottle or pacifier. Surely, bottles can't actually be for eating, no, they must be for chewing or grabbing or throwing on the floor, but definitely not for eating.

Sunday, March 13, 2016

Caught a Smile

Caught one of the sweetest smiles on camera. Baby A has been smiling since between 4 and 5 weeks and each one just melts my heart. I can't get enough of this amazing little person!




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Wednesday, June 11, 2014

The Times They Are A-Changin'

When I went in for my baseline ultrasound, a friendly nurse I haven't really worked with pulled me aside and informed me that I had neglected to fill out a necessary form. Apparently I had been listed as "single" in the computer instead of "married" and since I have a partner, they needed both our signatures for consent with the fertility treatments.

She started going through the forms, looking for the correct ones, and asked me to confirm that I have a partner or spouse.  I automatically said "Yes, I'm married" without thinking too much about it. The nurse paused for a moment, looked at me, and then asked "Is your spouse male or female?" I have to say, I was so impressed and proud in that moment that I almost hugged the nurse. I know it's probably a standard question, especially when a donor is involved, but it's amazing how far we've come and I have such high hopes for the future. I made a point of thanking her, told her how much I appreciated it, and collected the forms E and I will have to sign.

Yes
In the wake of the Wisconsin same-sex marriage ban falling to the wayside like so many of it's unjust fellows, I have so much hope that my children will get to grow up in a world where people aren't discriminated against based on gender or sexual orientation. It's so close I can almost see it coming over the horizon.

Friday, March 28, 2014

3 Years, Just Us 2

This year, E and I decided to go low key for our anniversary week. E was only able to get two days off work and we didn't feel like rushing to go somewhere out of town. We considered checking into a hotel for a staycation as well, but couldn't quite muster the energy for it. Our bed is pretty comfortable, and it comes with Milou and our kitties, which is hard to beat.

Baby S and E, a lifetime ago
So, we spent the day before celebrating E's mother's boyfriend R's birthday. E's mom and R have been dating for over a decade so he usually refers to us as his son and daughter in law. About a year ago, R did some electrical work for this wonderful, hip Venice restaurant called The Barnyard, and since then the chef has been bugging R to come eat there.  Since we finally had an excuse, we decided to head there for dinner to celebrate. The chef was truly amazing, everything was fresh, organic and delicious and we would go back in a heart beat. E had the chicken, which turned out to be phenomenal, and I had a decadent steak. Even the olives warmed in oil were amazing, and I'm not usually an olive fan. At the end of the evening, the chef comped our 9 person dinner as a birthday gift for R. You truly couldn't pick a better restaurant and chef if you have a reason to celebrate or just want a delicious meal.
On our actual anniversary, we played it very low key. E surprised me with Roses, Orchids and groceries (!) when I woke up and we spent the morning lounging in bed. It was so sweet, and so thoughtful,  even though E is usually awesome about that stuff anyway. We had hoped to get tickets to see The Book of Mormon, which is supposed to be hilarious, but weren't able to find some for a decent price on such short notice. Instead, we decided on a blast from the past and headed down PCH to a little restaurant we spent New Years Eve at years and years ago.   It's a little hole in the wall, Italian place right across from the water that makes a mean truffle ravioli.  PCH is probably my favorite road to drive and we got to wind up and down the coast enjoying the ocean and each other's company.

All in all, I'd say it was a relaxing couple of days and I'm so happy to celebrate another year together with E. Although I'm hoping this is the last anniversary we spend just the two of us for a long time, I couldn't imagine spending my life with anyone else. We've been dealing with a LOT lately in our quest to build our family, with bad news followed by more bad news, and I couldn't do it if I didn't have E to lean on.



Happy 3rd/12th Anniversary my love. No matter how we make our family happen, and how we tackle the shit news we seem to keep getting, the important thing is that we do it together. You're my everything and I love you like crazy.


Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Valentine's Day, First and Ten Style

We have done just about everything for Valentine's Day in the almost 10 years we've been together. There were dinners at various low-key favorite restaurants, intimate meals at home, all out splurges on some of LA's finest meals, some years where we just sat around in our PJs, and other less memorable years where we got into teenage fights and spent the night pouting.

Roses <3
 With all that history, Valentine's day tends to not be quite as exciting when you've already celebrated 9 of them.  We tried to celebrate together in Santa Barbara the weekend before, but ended up spending the trip with E's father. We weren't going to make a big deal out of it at home, but since it was our 10th Valentine's together, and our 1st Valentine's married, we decided to go out and brave the Los Angeles Valentine's day traffic and dinner rush.
 
In keeping with our relaxed theme, we gave each other our Valentine's gifts last Friday. I got E a new aftermarket battery for his 2006 Macbook Pro, which is sadly on the verge of dying and probably worth less than the cost of a legit apple battery, and he got me a 2 pound box of chocolate and sea salt carmels that I had been admiring on woot.
Chocolatey Carmel Goodness
  With most of the niceties observed, I wasn't expecting much yesterday but was looking forward to spending some one on one time with E.  I had work all day but E was off, so while I was gone he cleaned the house and bought me a beautiful bouquet of roses (from him) and an adorable stuffed bear with kisses (from our puppy). He also scheduled dinner at one of our favorite, laid back Italian restaurants and got dressed up in the shirt he proposed to me in, complete with the cologne he used to wear when we first started dating. 

Milou's Valentine's Bear
When I finally got home about half an hour late (thanks LA traffic), he presented me with his goodies and I gave him his other Valentine's gifts, a sweet card with puppies whose tails wagged, a giant See's truffle and a bag of his favorite Lindt truffles. We then hauled ass into the car, sat in lots of traffic, and finally made it to the restaurant which was packed to the brim with hungry couples. Since E had been snacking on nothing but goldfish all day in preparation for our dinner, he was famished and on the verge of eating the steering wheel so I wanted to get us seated fast. The soonest available table was one outside under some heat lamps instead of the warm tables inside the restaurant, but we took it and I figured my coat would keep me warm.

Spumoni in Santa Monica
We had been expecting to get our usual, and much loved, pasta dishes to keep the bill low, but as soon as we sat down the waiter presented us with one of those lovely pre-fix Valentine's menus with conspicuously absent prices. This put a bit of a damper on the evening, since my favorite dish wasn't there and we figured we'd end up dropping at least twice our budget. Resigned to our changed plans, E ordered his usual lobster ravioli, which was thankfully on the menu, and I ordered a fillet, which would have been my first choice at any other restaurant had I not been dreaming of spaghetti bolognese. They both came with bruschetta, a marinated pepper salad, and tiramisu or a cannoli.

Mmm Cannoli
About halfway into our salads, the adorable little red sandals I was wearing began to become less adorable and more impractical since all the cold air was blowing up my pant legs. After inquiring about turning up the heaters, which were already at full strength, E slipped off his warm dress shoes under the table and let me wear them for the rest of the meal. I had to keep my toes jammed in the front to keep them from falling off but they warmed me up almost as much as his sweetness did.

Not surprisingly, the food was absolutely delicious and to our happy surprise, turned out to be ridiculously cheap. We could have easily spent more ordering our pasta and Caesar salad without appetizers or desert, so I think Spumoni may have been the only restaurant in LA that didn't hike up their prices for Valentines.

All in all, it was a very successful Valentine's Day and I loved sharing it with E. Even with the changing plans and freezing ankles, I'm really glad we went out and can't help but look forward to another 75 Valentine's Days with my sweetie.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

The Happiest Place on Earth

Disneyland in the rain. Beautiful!

Somewhere along the way, wedding planning started to get a little stressful. I think it began when we realized that we had very little control over certain aspects of our wedding, important aspects like chairs, tables, linens, etc. This tends to happen when other people are responsible for things, and since our wedding is a multi-funded event, we're counting on a lot of people getting their ducks in a row.

People Count Thus Far:


- Rehearsal Dinner, Reception Food and Cake - E's Mom
- Venue & All Rentals - E's Stepdad G
- Photographer, Candy Bar, Invites, Booze, Flowers - My Mom
- Wedding Dress - My Faux Auntie
- Photobooth - Awesome Best Man
- Farewell Brunch - Awesome Best Man's Awesome Mom
- Flower Arranging - E's Stepdad's Wife
- Save the Dates, Rabbi, Candy Bar, Wedding Party Gifts, Ketubah - E and I

That's only the tip of the iceberg and we're already up to 9 people! I have to let go of my OCD planning and just let stuff happen, but it's really hard for me. We still don't have any rentals booked, the photobooth, the rehearsal dinner or brunch, etc etc. I keep having nightmares in which 200 people show up and we have no chairs or tables! Every once in a while, E and I will look at each other in panic and say "this is going to be a disaster!"

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Fur Children

Although I don't have any children of the human variety, I have many "children" of the animal variety, or fur babies if you will. I know not everyone has pets or bonds strongly with animals, but my animals are more family members than pets and there isn't anything I wouldn't do for them.

My oldest and most loyal companion would have to be my kitty cat "Haji Baba Prince of Cats". Haji came to me when I was nine years old as an 8 week old furry bundle of stripped spitfire. Spunky, playful and loving, I picked him easily out of a littler of equally stripey kittens living in a playpen in the back of a dress shop. Our bond was instantaneous and he used to follow me everywhere, sleeping curled against my head or on my chest at night. Haji has more personality in one paw than most people have in their entire body. At the young and vibrant age of fourteen, Haji is moody, arrogant, spoiled and vindictive. He's also loving, loyal to a fault, and absolutely dedicated to me. When he wants a snack, he walks to his food of choice and scratches on it until your ears start to bleed. He meows, pesters, picks and whines until he gets what he wants, even when multiple alternative food options available. Deny him long enough, ignore him, or the most unacceptable, go on vacation, and you will find your belongings deliberately peed on while you are watching. He can hold a grudge longer than I can, only drinks water when it's running, likes fillet mignon and cheese, dislikes fish and still sleeps on my chest or by my feet at night.

When I first went to college, I was forced to leave him at home, separating us for longer than a couple weeks for the first time. Not only did he pine, but he mourned so deeply that he became depressed, listless and eventually acquired both food allergies and serious asthma. My chubby boy went from a hefty 15 pounds to 7 pounds and I was scared I might be losing him. After 5 different vets and hundreds and hundreds of dollars he was eventually diagnosed, put on medication and a food restricted diet. He now eats only grain-free organic food, gets a monthly injection of a corticosteroid and a twice daily bronchodilator to control his asthma. The steroid which enables him to breath makes him vulnerable to diabetes and urinary tract infections, so we carefully monitor his health. His last vet visit, another three hundred dollars I don't have to spend, showed that in spite of all his problems he's in excellent health and I expect to have him with me until he's 30.



My next fur baby is my sweet little girl Button, or Buttonwillow McKitten. Button came to me much later than Haji, when I learned that there was a colony of feral cats living on my college campus. While mostly happy and fed by the requisite crazy cat lady, the kittens of these ferals were often eaten by coyotes, run over by drunk or unobservant college students or victims of extreme flea anemia. I couldn't possibly bear to see another squished little body on the pavement so a little under 4 years ago I set out to catch as many of the kittens as I could. At this point, the two surviving kittens were already about 3-4 months old, too old by most standards for socialization. This of course couldn't possibly deter me, so everyday for a week I climbed down the side of the hill that they lived on and sat with my cat carrier and a can of food, trying to lure them inside.

One kitten, the boy, was larger, more trusting and more playful, and would come close to the carrier without too much encouragement. The other kitten, a girl, was smaller, skinnier and much more nervous, following her brother but with great caution. I was convinced that I would be catching the boy first as he would almost enter the carrier to eat the food. Day after day I tried to lure them in, until eventually the little boy walked halfway inside. I really, Really wanted to trap him, but he wouldn't move far enough inside for me to close the gate. After half a minute he backed out of the carrier, and a friend of mine who had come with me took off her shoelace to try and lure him back in. To our great surprise, it was the scrawny little girl who pawed after the string, and after a few breathless minutes she walked into the carrier. It was too good an opportunity to pass up, so I tripped the door closed and she was caught. Her brother on the other hand, being bigger and stronger, was never caught despite repeated attempts and still lives on the campus today. I was able to catch two other older kittens there who had been abandoned, and they found homes with my friends.

Socializing Button was a lesson in patience and trust. I tried every socialization trick I could find but she refused to respond to any of them. Eventually, the turning point came when she stepped in her water bowl, tipped it into her litter pan and got herself covered nose to tail in thick clay litter. Overnight the litter dried to paste in her fur, and by the morning she was not a happy camper. It took me 2 hours to pick and wash the clay from her fur by hand, but by the end of it she was finally mine. After medical treatment for her flea anemia, lots of food, her alteration and her shots, she is by far the most loving kitty ever. She is still wary of other people and extremely shy around strangers (if you're lucky you'll see her fluffy tail slip under the bed), but she adores me and sleeps on her back in my arms and licks my nose and chin at night. She likes her belly rubbed the most, has big golden owl eyes, white ear whiskers and has the softest, silkiest black fur I've ever felt on a cat. She doesn't have a mean bone in her body, lives only in my room and has a dainty sweet little meow. She thinks she's a baby and is certainly my sweet baby girl who nearly gave me a heart attack when we went on vacation last year and she got stuck under the house. My honey and I drove back from Oregon through the night to get home, and he had to go under to rescue her since my boobs prevented me from fitting under the pipes.



Our animal family also contains my mother's rescue Sheltie named "Pippin", a walking sausage on legs, Zena, my grandma's fluffy boy kitty, and Devlin, the mischievous siamese/tabby that I found at a rescue for my sister. Devlin was also difficult in his own way, as he fell off my sister's bunk bed and broke both his hips at a year old. One surgery and over a thousand dollars later, he is a happy healthy 4 year old that spends most of his time sleeping or tormenting Haji and Zena.

In addition to my furry loves, I have a 110 gallon aquarium that I obsess over. It's a freshwater planted aquarium home to my angelfish and rainbows and I don't even want to think about the hours and the hundreds thousands I've sunk into it lol.

What about you guys? Have any high maintenance pets, possibly more work than your human children? Anyone else love their fur babies like crazy whoa?